Thursday, June 11, 2009

Time Heals

Having talked to a friend today, I realised that there are so many people out there who are facing much terrible experience in life than what we can see under our nose. Or of what we experienced ourself.
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Lots of us thought that we are the unlucky one, would be asking of why does the things happen to us not others, that people surrounds don't understand us as if we want things to be our way all the time etc etc... I admit, sometimes I get dissatisfied, enraged and upset when I have to have difficulties. I started to compare myself to others. But, as I listened a lot from my friends about their lives, I started to think back that things were not that bad with me. So as all of you out there.
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Thing is, we all have problems. We all do have hiccups in life - family, relationship, friendship, works, financial name it. We all experience it. But, it's up to ourselves to choose on how to handle it or how to feel about it. Certain things are not necessarily taken heavily. Sometimes we thought that's the end of thing only to find out few days later, THAT things are all fixed to the better.
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Learned to take things easy when facing difficulties but doesn't mean you can take it for granted and totally ignore it. Yea! Yea! Ignorance is bliss but as quoted by friend - Imelda, it causes stupidity. :) ** curi jap mel.
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Though some problems may not be resolved easily, times will take it away. Or, times will slowly show the way. Times will heal though it could be hard but it will.
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Really??

Monday, June 8, 2009

- Restless -

It's a restless day,

So as two days ago,

So as few days to come,

Dont know when will it stop,

When will I can let go,

It hurts and it's suffocating,

Holds me so tight, I can hardly breathe,

Dreaming, Smiling, Enjoying, Fading, Losing...

Delusioning in this little world is simply torturing,

Ignorance doesn't work, it ain't easy to disappear,

Where else will I belong if it's not here,
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No beginning yet no ending...
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Life is so restless!

* Liv *


Sunday, June 7, 2009

Happy 2nd Birthday, my girl...


3rd June 2009


"Been 2 years since you came to this world,

Been 2 wonderful years since you filled my life with great joys,

Been 2 years of love and happiness,

Thank you for coming into my life, girl..."






This is a late posting. My girl has turned 2 years old on the 3rd June 2009. Gosh! I can't believe it has been two years (and more to come...). Two great years of love and companionship. The party was great but I did not get to capture many photos as I had to run around to ensure there's enough foods and drinks. Attendance turned out more than I expected so me & dad has to make a last minute "tapau" from nearby coffeeshop as additional. Even the 2 photos attached here are cropped. And I didn't take any photo of us alone. :(

But It's okay. I'm happy enough to see my daughter is happy on her special day.

















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Tell you what, it was a wonderful moment with you. For a while, you made me feel happy and loved and belonged. For just a while, I feel I'm with you. I know it's not for long, I understand why. But I won't ask for more. Thank you...

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Misses you

How can I describe to you my feeling tonight,

How do I let you know that I missed you so much,

Thinking of you day and night, wish I could hold you tight,


















Truly sweetheart, Mommy misses you so very much!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Koff..Koff...

I've been coughing badly these few days. Huhu... anyone can suggest me how to treat it? Apart from medicine...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Practise Alone Ain't Enough

The choir performance for BM mass today did not turn out so well. Although we have practised yesterday but things seems to be out of order. Especially in communication. For Psalm, a choir member is supposed to sing it, instead the first reader continue to reading the Psalm skipping the singging part. Poor Bonny. He has been practising so hard for it yesterday. Better luck next time yeah, Bonny. Maybe next week. : )
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Sometimes I wonder, what does it feels like when you can sing so well, maybe like Beyonce?? Or Darlene Zschech of Hillsongs? You can scream in high notes and the song still sounds so beautiful.. Huh! I wish I could do that!
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I feel a little offended with an ex-schoolmate I've just bumped into. He saw me with Amanda a couple of week ago. When we chatted today, he popped a question about my husband. When I told him that I'm not married, his reaction changed. Suddenly, from being so friendly, he talks less. Well, my guess is he's just too shocked to react. So, it's fine... Just a little bit offended though, I'm alright.
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Nite now...
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
- Casting Crows : Who Am I -

Friday, May 15, 2009

Speak English, boleh?

It's been almost 3 months in Bintulu. So far everything is okay. Well, not really EVERYTHING, but nothing that I can't live with, except for missing my girl every second. That is why I travel down to Miri almost every weekend although it was very tiring sitting in the bus for 3 hours and a half.
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Work on the other side....hm...rated just ok ok lah! I have a slight annoying communication issue at work. As the person who's handling a project order, it would be easier when everyone cooperate accordingly and provide me with necessary information so I could make an appropriate follow up. Thing is, whenever we were to discuss some issue (informally), these particular people somehow communicate in their dialect and it went on and on leaving me staring in blurriness. Although I tried to make them notice "that I'm standing just next to you hey...hello?? and I don't understand your language. Speak English please...", But it doesn't work. Instead of looking stupid just standing there knowing nothing what they are saying, I returned to my own cubicle. And the next day, I have to ask about the same thing again and they expect me to already know?? What the heck...
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You see, I don't mind when 2 people who understand each other's dialect and feel more confortable communicate with it, talking in that dialect. Mengumpat? Komplen? Suka hati! But in something official and important and work-wise, please do not expect us to be a genius sampai right away terer mauk tangkap what you have been talking about dalam bahasa yang aku tak pernah belajar. What's wrong with using English? Or BM at least. Bukannya diorg tak pandai!
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Today, when I wanted to clarify on one of our order with my superior, instead of providing me with necessary information, she sempat membebel at me and whining as to why I didn't follow up with the issue much earlier. Irritated, I explained to her that all follow up and email reply has been done. All I want is a clarification on some delivery issue and she dragged it like I have not done my job. You want prove? I'll show you the prove babeh!
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Sigh! After a long absence, all I can come out with in this entry is whining about job?? Aih! Sorry guys... It's not that I hate my job, just that the system is a bit improper. I know, I know...every offices has its own crisis. I'll try to overcome mine.
Nite now!